Ready for more poetry?

I wanted to write another poem, but I was having such a hard time. Then Brian said to write something that was going on in my life right now, and then words turned into sentences that soon turned into this poem. I'm excited to share part of my journey here in Arkansas, but I also regret not being talented enough to put more understanding verses. You'll see plenty of places where the meaning is vague. This journey as been complicated and hard for me to wrap my head around. It is already frustrating trying to solve a raging battle within  yourself let alone putting it into words. I hope you enjoy reading anyway. 

A Journey God Inspired 

By Yours Truly 

I never dreamed this was where I'd be.
Away from familiar faces, friends, and family.
I had my own ideas of what my life out to consist of,
But never would they compare to God's plan, one full of love.
I used to fantasize about a place where You and I would grow close.
You sent me to a flat place where ice storms reign, flash floods rush, and the tornado blows.
I had to start over without my usual comforts and securities
Clinging only to my Bible and the man you gave me to the best of my abilities.
Much was my confusion and many were my tears,
But all I could do was trust and hand You all my fears.
My spirit was dead and anguished
Until all at once You opened my eyes, heart, and soul that were dry and famished.
I remembered my prayers to get away and learn how to live with abandon.
How to get by with only You as my provider, teacher, and companion.
I never thought Id face these trials of marriage so soon and so quick to say, "I'm done",
But You gave me wisdom and helped me to overcome.
You fitted me into a church that as helped me grow,
And to people I could run to when my spiritual level was on low.
And as much as I'd like to see all my loved ones and the mountains that are deeply engraved in memory,
I'd rather stay put and see all the plans You've made for me.

I'm literally blushing as I prepare myself to post this. I know you guys would never make fun of me, but it's still embarrassing to put your feelings out there for everyone to see. This is how moving on with your life feels like though. It's not all the time, and I don't believe it'll feel this complicated forever. It is hard, but I know it'll be rewarding. 

I did take that walk! It was last night instead of Sunday night but still nice. I'm excited to blog about it : ) See ya then!